Announcement

I've decided to cut this round short.  yes, instead of going the full 49 days, I will only be doing 23.  This is a good thing.  I plan on jumping right into some different workouts.  We have a couple of new gyms in our area, and neither of them require contracts, so I'm hoping to give them a shot.  We'll see.  I may just stay home and workout there.  But, this is definitely a good thing.  Life is just so busy, even with a schedule, that I am struggling to stay on the diet.  Finding the time to prepare the special food (and the money to buy the special food) is becoming harder as the holiday season approaches earlier than I anticipated.  But, like I said, I'm good with this.  I've lost about 8 lbs, so it's definitely a good jump start to my weight loss goal.  :)

Progress

Okay, so I know I promised an update yesterday, but yesterday was a really BAD day.  And I cheated.  But like I said: it was a really bad day.

So, here's the progress so far:  total lost: 8 lbs.  Not as good as I would have hoped, but it is my 3rd round and I am starting lower than my first good round (a little higher than my 2nd round, but the same weight that I ended after cheating that whole 40 days).  I haven't lost any weight for 3 days, but that's okay.  I have lost a few inches total, but not a big enough difference to start jumping up and down.  I'm hoping for some better progress next week.

I'm debating whether or not I want to only do 23 days now, or the full 49.  I haven't filled all of my needles yet, and I really think that maybe this would be a good, quick jump start and then I could work out and eat diet-y food without being so strict.  I don't know.  Hubs wants me to do the full 49 days.  I guess we'll see what happens.  I still have a week to decide.

Caution: This post may be full of whining. Read at your own discretion!

It's hot.

And my swamp cooler is broken.

And my apartment faces west, so it's really, REALLY, REALLY hot anytime between 11 AM and 8:30 PM.

Also, it's Sunday.  Church was hot.  The walk to and from church was hot.  And now I'm stuck at home, where it's....  Ready for this?  HOT!

I recall freezing my first two rounds of HCG.  I'm wondering why it is that I am melting in this sweltering heat now.  My SIL did HCG in July, when we went on family vacation up to Park City.  She wore a sweater down to the pool while the rest of us were content in our bathing suits and towels.  Yeah, I sure would appreciate being that cold right about now. 

I'm so hot that I'm half tempted to get in my hot car and drive to Walmart where I will then become the freak who gets stuck in the ice cream display.  Yeah, that'll be me.  When you see it on the news you can say, "Hey! That's the chick with the HCG blog that I read!"  (Yes, all two of you!  I know I'll be famous!)

Also, I'm not nearly as tired as I was my first two rounds.  I thought I was going to be exhausted this time around, too, but I just saw a spider on the ceiling and I have never gotten my butt up off the couch faster.

I also just remembered that my DH brought one of our upstairs fans downstairs into the kitchen to blow the smoke outside from when I burned dinner last Tuesday.  It never made it back upstairs.  Yeah, guess who's smart?  I am now sitting in the lap of luxury on my couch.  That's right. The fan is blowing on me.

Okay, so one problem solved, I guess.

But the other problem remains:  I am STARVING!  And frustrated.  I ate 3.5 lbs of fish last week, and only lost a couple of pounds.

Okay, okay, so I cheated Monday. And Tuesday. And a little bit Wednesday. And maybe Thursday and Friday. Okay, I confess, I had a PBJ sandy on Saturday. But still!  I only cheated a little at dinner time, and the rest of the day I was good!  Besides, fish doesn't even have that many calories!  I was probably well under my 500 calories before I cheated.

Fine, I know.  I shouldn't be cheating.  It's just so dang tempting.  Those stupid PBJ sandwiches that my 3 y.o. loves so much.  They are so enticing.  I had to make myself one...or four....just to remember how yummy they were.

Okay, so here goes:  I promise to behave this week (with the exception of Thursday, when we'll probably go out to dinner for my son's birthday.  I make no promises for that day.)  Where should we go?  Goodwood BBQ?  Pirate Island Pizza?  CPK?  Who knows.  I'll report in later.

One last thing before I go:  I didn't take my measurements last week.  Kind of totally forgot to do it.  So I promise to take them tomorrow and report in with my total lost.  Okay.  I'm done whining now.  Thanks for letting me vent!

I can't believe I did it

I cheated.  Yes, that's right.  I cheated!

What happened was this: 

It was Monday night, FHE you know (Family Home Evening) and we were going down to Santaquin to a park by my niece's house where the kids could play in the splash pad.  We were going to have dinner.  We were supposed to be there at 6 PM.

Well, I fell asleep on the couch and woke up at 6 PM.  We hurried down to the park, arriving at 6:30 PM.  I didn't bring my food because I don't eat usually until around 7 or 7:30 when I'm on this phase of the diet.  The kids started playing on the splash pad.  Everyone started eating.  I realized we were gonna be there for a while.  UGH!  I didn't have my food, and I was starving, having just woken up from my nap.  I had a few slices of tomato, 2 small meatballs, and a little bit of the pulled pork.  I was tempted to eat the roll too, but decided to be good.  Then they pulled out the cookies.  They were the Keebler cookies:  grasshoppers, striped cookies, and peanut butter cookies. 

I had a bite of the grasshopper.  It wasn't as good as I thought it would be.  Kind of reminded me of a Thin Mint (Girl Scout cookies), but not as good.  Then I had an entire peanut butter cookie (kind of like the GSA Tag-Alongs, only not as good).  I wanted another one badly, but I didn't eat it. 

The worst part about this story?  We left by 7 because Munchkin was freezing.  It was cold and windy and he was soaking wet and shivering.  We were home by 7:30.  Had I known, I totally wouldn't have cheated!  But, what's done is done.  I am resolved to be extra good today though, to make up for it.  I have my charitable organization meeting tonight, and they always eat dinner.  I am determined to not cheat tonight.  And possibly ever again.  But we'll see.

Day 7 or I forgot to eat my apple AGAIN?

I planned this round of HCG very carefully.  I have a really hard time waking up early on Sunday mornings, so I wanted that to be my 7th day.  You know?  The one where you don't shoot yourself in the leg to give your body a bit of a rest?  Yeah, that one.

The problem is this:  Here it is, just past noon, almost time for me to eat lunch I might add, and I still haven't eaten my morning apple.  Why is that?  Well, because I woke up at 10.  You can't eat for a full hour after waking up.  At 11 I was just starting to get ready and putting the Munchkin into the tub for his morning soak.  Now here I sit, blogging at 12:15 PM, hungry, and wondering why.  Then I remember, oh yeah, I forgot to eat my apple AGAIN! 

This happens regularly.  I routinely forget to take my morning apple with me to work.  Sure I remember my lunch, but remembering a tiny little apple seems like almost too much for my brain this round.  I don't get it. 

But, the good news is that I have lost about 5 lbs, so I'm really quite happy.  My once-tight-then-too-loose-then-too-tight designer jeans now fit only snugly instead of the "I can't breathe when I wear these" fit, and I'm starting to need the assistance of a belt again to keep them up once they stretch out.  I no longer have to pour myself into them, too, which is nice.  I really hated jumping up and down to get them up.

I'm taking my measurements tomorrow.  My first round I took them daily. My second round I only took them the first week.  This round I think I'll stick with once weekly and be surprised by the progress I'm making....hopefully in the right direction! ;)

OMG I WANT SOME FREAKING CAKE!!

And I want it NOW! I am so grumpy because I'm STARVING!!!  I want to eat the potato chips and the cake and the PBJ sandies.  But, I have lost 2.5 lbs already, so I guess that's good.  It's definitely a step in the right direction.

I was thinking about it this morning, and realized something.

Round 1 I was so sick during my load days that I lost 10 lbs my first week.
Round 2 I gained 8 lbs my first 2 days, then it took 3 weeks to take the 8 lbs off.
This round, I'm already off to a decent start.  I only gained 1 lb on my load days, so taking it back off was a lot easier than that 8 lbs from the last round. 

I am determined to succeed this round.  However, I have a few obstacles:

My son turns 4 on the 30th of this month.  Party=cake & ice cream. We also usually go out to dinner for birthdays.  I'm totally going to struggle.  The alternative, though, was waiting until the beginning of October, and then I'd still be on the diet for Thanksgiving, which is so not going to happen! haha

Ok, this helped a little.  I still have a craving for the cake and the chips, but I think the tea is helping.  Hopefully I can keep my willpower up!!

Day 3

Wow, Day 3 and I'm already wishing I were done.  Yesterday was my last load day.  I'm wishing I could have eaten more food.  Today my SIL had Little Caesar's pizza.  I so wish I had eaten some pizza before the load days were over.  And potato chips!  ooh, i just remembered I have a bag of those Lay's Cheddar and Sour Cream ones.  They're my favorite!  OH, and Munchkin made me make him 2 PBJ sandwiches today, and it took all of my self control not to lick my fingers off!  Oh, and of course there is the triple chocolate fudge cake with triple chocolate fudge frosting that I made and then forgot about yesterday!  It's sitting there, taunting me on my kitchen counter. 

It's okay though.  I have at least 35 lbs to lose, and I am going to be dedicated this time (as opposed to my 2nd round when I cheated so badly).

I am going to take it one day at a time.  I got through today without any problems.  Let's see how tomorrow goes. :)

Starting Round 3

WOW!  It has been a looong time since I've posted anything.  Sorry about that.

So, I guess my last post was in May?  I finished my 2nd round in June, but only lost a total of 5 lbs because I cheated the whole time.  Yeah, not going to happen this time.

I don't know why I cheated.  I don't feel good.  Before, after my 1st round, I felt great.  Now, I've gained back a significant amount of weight because I stopped caring.  Not. Good.

I feel gross and icky all the time now.  My clothes don't fit, and I'm not going to go buy bigger ones, because I just got rid of all of my bigger clothes.  I don't want to end up in that vicious spiral again.  So, what am I going to do about it?

Start another round, of course!

I had to wait 10 weeks inbetween 2 and 3, anyway, and I think I might be at 11 weeks now?? I forgot...lost track...yeah, not a good thing.

So today was my first shot in over 3 months.  I had to psych myself up for it.  I forgot how much this vitamin B makes it sting.  Also, my needles are a little challenged, so I'm constantly worrying about them getting bent.  They bend super easily.  Oh well, next time I'll request different needles.  These are like the kind my SIL used when she was on it, not the kind I had my 1st round.

So, today is a load day, and already the thought of food is making me sick!  I know, crazy, right?  Maybe it's because I've been loading up all weekend? haha  I just wanted to get all of those yummy yummy good foods that I won't be able to eat out of the way. 

Also, gotta do my grocery shopping for the rest of the week today or tomorrow.  I forgot how much specialized food you need.  I'm going to try and do it without the Melba toast, which is noble, I know, but we'll see how long that lasts.

I'll try and update this more regularly.  I really think that writing everything helped me lose 35 lbs my first round, so here's to losing that much this time!