Confessions

I haven't been working out.

I haven't been eating too healthy, either.

Today I had In-n-Out burger for lunch (with a chocolate milkshake, of course!)

I'm also addicted to Werther's original hard candies.

I haven't weighed in 2 weeks, too.

On My Own

It's hard being good.

It's hard finding time to work out.

It's hard to eat healthy, when everyone around you isn't.

But! I have purchased a whole bunch of those SmartOnes and Healthy Choice low-cal meals.  I had one for dinner tonight.  It was good, and only 350 calories.  YAY!

Of course, the 4 pink Lofthouse cookies and the piece of chocolate cake I had throughout the day didn't help.

But, I did eat a salad at the Corner Bakery Cafe in SLC for lunch.  And it wasn't the big salad.  It was the "cafe" size (small).  It was yummy.

So, I'm going to try to be good with the food.  Once the cookies and the cake are gone, that's it.

I do need to focus more on finding the time to workout.  I'm thinking about starting up on Turbo Jam again.  I really would like to do P90X, but I'm so not in good enough shape to even attempt that!  So, I think starting with Turbo Jam might be a good choice.  Hopefully I'll be able to get some workouts in this week. *fingers crossed*

Announcement

I've decided to cut this round short.  yes, instead of going the full 49 days, I will only be doing 23.  This is a good thing.  I plan on jumping right into some different workouts.  We have a couple of new gyms in our area, and neither of them require contracts, so I'm hoping to give them a shot.  We'll see.  I may just stay home and workout there.  But, this is definitely a good thing.  Life is just so busy, even with a schedule, that I am struggling to stay on the diet.  Finding the time to prepare the special food (and the money to buy the special food) is becoming harder as the holiday season approaches earlier than I anticipated.  But, like I said, I'm good with this.  I've lost about 8 lbs, so it's definitely a good jump start to my weight loss goal.  :)

Progress

Okay, so I know I promised an update yesterday, but yesterday was a really BAD day.  And I cheated.  But like I said: it was a really bad day.

So, here's the progress so far:  total lost: 8 lbs.  Not as good as I would have hoped, but it is my 3rd round and I am starting lower than my first good round (a little higher than my 2nd round, but the same weight that I ended after cheating that whole 40 days).  I haven't lost any weight for 3 days, but that's okay.  I have lost a few inches total, but not a big enough difference to start jumping up and down.  I'm hoping for some better progress next week.

I'm debating whether or not I want to only do 23 days now, or the full 49.  I haven't filled all of my needles yet, and I really think that maybe this would be a good, quick jump start and then I could work out and eat diet-y food without being so strict.  I don't know.  Hubs wants me to do the full 49 days.  I guess we'll see what happens.  I still have a week to decide.

Caution: This post may be full of whining. Read at your own discretion!

It's hot.

And my swamp cooler is broken.

And my apartment faces west, so it's really, REALLY, REALLY hot anytime between 11 AM and 8:30 PM.

Also, it's Sunday.  Church was hot.  The walk to and from church was hot.  And now I'm stuck at home, where it's....  Ready for this?  HOT!

I recall freezing my first two rounds of HCG.  I'm wondering why it is that I am melting in this sweltering heat now.  My SIL did HCG in July, when we went on family vacation up to Park City.  She wore a sweater down to the pool while the rest of us were content in our bathing suits and towels.  Yeah, I sure would appreciate being that cold right about now. 

I'm so hot that I'm half tempted to get in my hot car and drive to Walmart where I will then become the freak who gets stuck in the ice cream display.  Yeah, that'll be me.  When you see it on the news you can say, "Hey! That's the chick with the HCG blog that I read!"  (Yes, all two of you!  I know I'll be famous!)

Also, I'm not nearly as tired as I was my first two rounds.  I thought I was going to be exhausted this time around, too, but I just saw a spider on the ceiling and I have never gotten my butt up off the couch faster.

I also just remembered that my DH brought one of our upstairs fans downstairs into the kitchen to blow the smoke outside from when I burned dinner last Tuesday.  It never made it back upstairs.  Yeah, guess who's smart?  I am now sitting in the lap of luxury on my couch.  That's right. The fan is blowing on me.

Okay, so one problem solved, I guess.

But the other problem remains:  I am STARVING!  And frustrated.  I ate 3.5 lbs of fish last week, and only lost a couple of pounds.

Okay, okay, so I cheated Monday. And Tuesday. And a little bit Wednesday. And maybe Thursday and Friday. Okay, I confess, I had a PBJ sandy on Saturday. But still!  I only cheated a little at dinner time, and the rest of the day I was good!  Besides, fish doesn't even have that many calories!  I was probably well under my 500 calories before I cheated.

Fine, I know.  I shouldn't be cheating.  It's just so dang tempting.  Those stupid PBJ sandwiches that my 3 y.o. loves so much.  They are so enticing.  I had to make myself one...or four....just to remember how yummy they were.

Okay, so here goes:  I promise to behave this week (with the exception of Thursday, when we'll probably go out to dinner for my son's birthday.  I make no promises for that day.)  Where should we go?  Goodwood BBQ?  Pirate Island Pizza?  CPK?  Who knows.  I'll report in later.

One last thing before I go:  I didn't take my measurements last week.  Kind of totally forgot to do it.  So I promise to take them tomorrow and report in with my total lost.  Okay.  I'm done whining now.  Thanks for letting me vent!

I can't believe I did it

I cheated.  Yes, that's right.  I cheated!

What happened was this: 

It was Monday night, FHE you know (Family Home Evening) and we were going down to Santaquin to a park by my niece's house where the kids could play in the splash pad.  We were going to have dinner.  We were supposed to be there at 6 PM.

Well, I fell asleep on the couch and woke up at 6 PM.  We hurried down to the park, arriving at 6:30 PM.  I didn't bring my food because I don't eat usually until around 7 or 7:30 when I'm on this phase of the diet.  The kids started playing on the splash pad.  Everyone started eating.  I realized we were gonna be there for a while.  UGH!  I didn't have my food, and I was starving, having just woken up from my nap.  I had a few slices of tomato, 2 small meatballs, and a little bit of the pulled pork.  I was tempted to eat the roll too, but decided to be good.  Then they pulled out the cookies.  They were the Keebler cookies:  grasshoppers, striped cookies, and peanut butter cookies. 

I had a bite of the grasshopper.  It wasn't as good as I thought it would be.  Kind of reminded me of a Thin Mint (Girl Scout cookies), but not as good.  Then I had an entire peanut butter cookie (kind of like the GSA Tag-Alongs, only not as good).  I wanted another one badly, but I didn't eat it. 

The worst part about this story?  We left by 7 because Munchkin was freezing.  It was cold and windy and he was soaking wet and shivering.  We were home by 7:30.  Had I known, I totally wouldn't have cheated!  But, what's done is done.  I am resolved to be extra good today though, to make up for it.  I have my charitable organization meeting tonight, and they always eat dinner.  I am determined to not cheat tonight.  And possibly ever again.  But we'll see.

Day 7 or I forgot to eat my apple AGAIN?

I planned this round of HCG very carefully.  I have a really hard time waking up early on Sunday mornings, so I wanted that to be my 7th day.  You know?  The one where you don't shoot yourself in the leg to give your body a bit of a rest?  Yeah, that one.

The problem is this:  Here it is, just past noon, almost time for me to eat lunch I might add, and I still haven't eaten my morning apple.  Why is that?  Well, because I woke up at 10.  You can't eat for a full hour after waking up.  At 11 I was just starting to get ready and putting the Munchkin into the tub for his morning soak.  Now here I sit, blogging at 12:15 PM, hungry, and wondering why.  Then I remember, oh yeah, I forgot to eat my apple AGAIN! 

This happens regularly.  I routinely forget to take my morning apple with me to work.  Sure I remember my lunch, but remembering a tiny little apple seems like almost too much for my brain this round.  I don't get it. 

But, the good news is that I have lost about 5 lbs, so I'm really quite happy.  My once-tight-then-too-loose-then-too-tight designer jeans now fit only snugly instead of the "I can't breathe when I wear these" fit, and I'm starting to need the assistance of a belt again to keep them up once they stretch out.  I no longer have to pour myself into them, too, which is nice.  I really hated jumping up and down to get them up.

I'm taking my measurements tomorrow.  My first round I took them daily. My second round I only took them the first week.  This round I think I'll stick with once weekly and be surprised by the progress I'm making....hopefully in the right direction! ;)